My name is Alicie and I have been member of Holy Redeemer's Youth Ministry for about 4 years now.
Starting this school year, I was so excited for all that was to come during my senior year, the "golden year" as some call it. From the many special events reserved only for seniors to just being able to be on the top of the theoretical food chain that is high school, my senior year was definitely going to be one for the books. I mean come on; my class has the most legendary numbers for our year! 2020! Can you imagine how perfect the grad glasses would be?! After seeing 4 of my siblings have such a legendary last year of high school and being super jealous of it if I might add, I was so ready to experience my very own! Unfortunately, as you all know, COVID-19 derailed all those plans and memories that were to be made. And I know what most are thinking,
"But you were still in school for the majority of the year, that should count for something shouldn't it?"
But everyone knows that the best part of senior year are the last few months, When you get to see all the hard work you put into all your classes pay off...When you get to give one last hoorah with your friends at prom...When you get to experience your "lasts" of high school...When you finally get to cross the finish line that took you 13 years to reach...
For me, the hardest moment caused by the Corona Virus was when my county announced that graduation was cancelled. That has been the day I've have been looking forward to since I was in Kindergarten, and the thought of not being to celebrate that momentous moment was heartbreaking. In my family, graduation has always been a major event, where my parents would literally invite everyone they knew to celebrate with us. I could always imagine how I would feel every moment of that day. From being excited while getting ready at home, to not being able to sit still while waiting for my name to be called, to standing on the steps practically bouncing behind the person who's name is called next, to finally hearing my name announced proudly by my Guidance Counselor while walking across that grand stage with the biggest smile on my face, and hearing my friend's and family's screams and cheers of excitement validating all the hard work I have put into my years of school. I am blessed enough to not have to completely say goodbye to this fantasy because my county decided to push back the graduation to July, but I know many counties have given up on it as a whole, and if you are a part of one of them, I am truly so sorry! Trust me if anyone understands what you are going through its me! But I do have good news to share with you all...
"I consider that the sufferings of this present time are as nothing compared with the glory to be revealed for us."
In simpler terms, this bible verse is saying that the pain you are feeling right now, cannot compare to the JOY you will feel later on. I know the pain and sorrow you are feeling right now seems unbearable and can feel like you're drowning, but you have to know that God is right with you every step of the way and he will get you out of this tough spot. There are bigger and brighter days to come, as there always will be because we have a God that loved us so much that he gave up his life so that we may live. Take all this pain you have been feeling and just pour it into him, he can handle anything you throw at him, and trust me it helps. For me, whenever I start to feel down, I do a quick little prayer asking God for guidance and strength, and then just jam out to my favorite worship songs. This relieves so much stress and anxiety for me, and it is my go-to for any situation, but you could always use another method to help. You could paint, read the bible, or any book for that matter, watch live sermons, talk to your friends over the phone, spend time with your family, and just so much more.
I am and have always been a firm believer of God allowing everything happen for a reason, and this pandemic is no different for me. We have been given an abundance of time to do literally anything with. Take advantage of that time by starting something you always wished you had the time to. From learning how to sew, to cooking more, to spending more time with God, to reading the bible front and back, to spending more time with family, to literally anything else! The list is virtually endless so take this time to make history and start good habits!
I really hope this blog helps whoever is reading this to either one, understand what the seniors are going through during this time or two, know that they are not alone in feeling down during this pressing time. I, as well as hundreds of others, feel the same way you do and completely understand what you are going through, but don't let this pandemic stop you from growing in your faith and thriving as a person. Just remember, when life gives you lemons, no matter how sour they may seem, make some lemonade!
Thank you for reading!
PS. if anyone wants to reach me and talk about literally anything or just become friends, my messages are open on Instagram @lol.alicie